Chapter 198
Alessandro’s frown deepened as he watched me. His eyes were like fire ready to burn me if I said another word. He grabbed my arm and pulled me back over the bed.
“Why the fuck would I wear a condom?”
I pushed on his chest, “Because I don’t know if you don’t have STIS“,
He blinked, caught off guard.
I stepped back, trembling with fury and frustration.
“You’ve been out there God knows where, with God knows who,” I hissed. “I don’t know what you’ve been doing while I was gone. You could’ve slept with anyone. Women. Men. Hell, both“, I ranted without thinking.
“Shit. Are you saying that I have HIV/AIDS or…….
“No that’s not what I’m trying to say, I’m tired, Alessandro. Tired of living for other people. First, my parents, then you, and now Paul fucking Salvatore…” I shook my head, a bitter laugh escaping my lips. “For once, I just want to live for myself.”
I turned away, trying to breathe through the lump in my throat. “I want to feel like I have control over something in my life. Over my body. Over my choices. Over who I let inside me,physically and emotionally.” Every word that came out of my mouth wasn’t an answer for his question. Alessandro probably realized it that I wasn’t fine.
When he didn’t say anything, I slumped over the bed then pushed my face into the pillow. Within seconds, I felt his hand softly trailing down my back, his fingers leaving a trail of goosebumps in their wake.
“Nikolai…” he whispered, nuzzling his face into my half–wet, half–dry, and half–mess of a hair.
I moved away from him, I suddenly just wanted to curl up in my sheets and cry. “You got what you wanted, right? You wanted to fuck me… You did, now can you just leave…”
There was silence between us as I pulled the sheets over my naked body and turned on my side. I felt his hands all over me, and my body
ached.
Suddenly, he grabbed my shoulder and turned me over my back. I opened my mouth to say something, ready to light him on fire but he placed a finger over my lips. His body adjusted perfectly between my legs.
“Shh… you wanna live for yourself? You want your freedom? You can have it, you can have it all you want but do not expect me to give you a divorce for that.” he leaned closer, and our noses touched.
“Alessandro…”
“No, Nikolai, I can’t leave you. You have me, you have Alessandro De Luca in the palm of your hands. I have never wanted another man or woman like I want you. You can have some time to figure your shit out but you can’t get rid of me forever. Forever is a very long time. I might be able to give you a month or two but forever is completely out of the question. Divorce is out of the question.”
I looked into his eyes, searching for something/1 didn’t even know, “I hate you, Alessandro…” I whispered lowly,…
His lips curled into a malicious smirk, he gaye his head a gentle shake. “No, you don’t…”
dn’t know why I said that.
His lips slowly touched mine and I realized, we hadn’t kissed this whole time; we were too busy chewing each other’s heads off.
I felt his tip brushing against my entrance, he was stroking himself. I jerked my hips up and he understood what I wanted. He always did…..
He slowly entered me this time, taking his time with each thrust. He kept kissing my lips, my neck, my eyes.
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Our hands intertwined, our fingers interlaced, resting on either side of me.
This time, we didn’t talk, we didn’t utter a single word.
This time, it was different.
It almost felt like love…
It didn’t fully feel like love because I had Leah’s words, sounding in my head.
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