Chapter 157
I cried as hard as I could. I squeezed my eyes shut and I just started to cry: I sobbed, and hiccupped, my body wracked with an onslaught o
sobs.
My throat burned. My chest ached. I couldn’t stop it. I didn’t want to stop it..
“I’m sorry…” he whispered, voice hoarse. “Fuck, I’m so sorry, baby.”
He leaned down, pressing kisses to my cheeks, my wet lashes, trying to kiss away the devastation he’d caused. His grip on my wrists loosened, almost tender now, as if he suddenly remembered I was something fragile.
But I didn’t feel it.
I didn’t feel the warmth of his lips.
The spark of his touch.
The butterflies that used to flutter in my stomach, they were gone. Dead. Silent.
All I felt was numbness.
“Why?” my voice barely above a whisper.
Why did he do it?
Why did he ruin everything? Our love?!
I wish he had never told me.
His hand cradled my face as he looked down at me, guilt swirling behind his eyes–but not enough. Never enough.
“Your parents weren’t good, you know that,” he murmured. “Neither am I.” He continued.
“No one in the mafia family is good, you up to now also don’t know that it’s your father that ordered, your twin Sabrina to be killed“,
My sob caught in my throat.
I stared up at him, unable to move, unable to blink.
Everything in me froze. “What…?” I breathed, barely forming the word.
He nodded his head then I cried harder, shaking my head from side to side, I didn’t want to accept it.
But after thinking about everything, it was probably the truth.
The room spun again as I recalled everything. My breath turned to knives in my lungs.
First my parents. Now this?
Everything I thought I knew about my family, my blood, my roots was slipping through my fingers like ash. Lies layered upon lies. Secrets stacked like coffins.
I didn’t know who I hated more.
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Alessandro.
My father.
Myself.
Or the world that made monsters out of all of us.
“I no longer trust anyone anymore, I now know that you don’t love me, this is all possession and obsession“, I weakly pushed at his chest to get him off of me.
“Nikolai, don’t fucking-”
“You hate me” I pushed him back hard, “GET OFF ME! YOU HATE ME! YOU’RE A MONSTER! I HATE YOU! YOU’RE AN ANIMAL! YOU DISGUST
ME! GET OFF ME!”
He restrained my arms again and turned my face to the side. I struggled, my eyes widened, and he laid his body over me, his weight crushing me into the mattress. He held my body in such a way that I couldn’t move under his weight, I struggled with all my might but he was far
stronger.
He grabbed something from the bed, it was probably what he took out of the nightstand earlier. I panicked as I struggled harder underneath him.
I started crying again. He scared me. Alessandro scared me. I never thought he’d scare me as much as I was scared of him right now. I was terrified of him.
“Let me go, please, let me go,” I cried harder.
“What is wrong with you? I’m not going to hurt you, Nikolai!” I heard him say but I didn’t believe him.
He killed my parents, he was a murderer. They sold me to him then he later killed them.
“Let me go, please, please! I won’t bother you again. Please, don’t kill me!” I cried harder than before.
I cried and cried until I saw everything around me become black.
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