Chapter 29
Irene’s POV:
Decision–making has always been a risky thing to do right from the ancient days, in it definitely can’t become an easy thing for me to do now. I was thrown into a state of either thinking with my heart of my hear
I was torn between chasing after what I know will burt me at the end and what I knew was the absolute best for me.
I wasn’t sure. But I knew that distancing myself from Damien before it got late was the best option for me.
So, as Steven drove us back home, all I could do was look out the window and think about what could be, and what couldn’t be. I splayed everything down on the table of my mind and began to weigh each and every piece of thought that was aching my chest.
They were too heavy.
Today’s weather was stable. The fluffy clouds of white dotted and blended with the blue sky in a perfect symphony. All I could wish was for my mind to be as stable and calm as the sky and nature.
I didn’t need to be distressed with thoughts about a life I shouldn’t be a part of. I was doing all of this for a purpose, right? But, why am I losing to Damien again for the second time? Why is the ice wall I built to guard my heart from falling again crumbling into pieces? Why was it easy for Damien to even penetrate it in the first place?
It freaking sucks.
And yet I still want Damien Chad, my downfall.
“Irene, you good?” Delores’s voice brought me back to earth as her hand tapped me lightly on my thigh to get my attention.
“Sure, I faked a smile. “Thanks,” I added. But I know she could see throughout my blatant lie. I was nowhere close to being fine or alright. I was heavily burdened with uncertain thoughts.
“Alright, dear.” She tapped me twice and looked away, cradling Charlie in her arms who was battling the magical power of slumber. He wanted to keep watching the busy city flying by.
I looked away again, staring through the window and looking outside. It was the only distraction that I could give my weary mind. Steven remained quiet as he kept driving, but I’m sure he can also notice the tension between Damien and me.
It wouldn’t be difficult to see. I’ve never been that person who knows how well to hide their true emotions from reflecting through their facial expressions and entire mood.
So the drive basically remained quiet, especially when Charlie had slept.
“We’re here,” Steven announced. He turned off the engine and stepped out of the car. He opened my side of the door and rushed to Delores’s side. His cute action made a smile appear on my face. And I was happy to see a relationship that is slowly blooming naturally. One that had no backstory of pain and regrets.
“Thank you so much, Steven,” I said to him as I walked to where he was standing with Delores, who was carrying Charlie in
her arms.
“It was a pleasure,” He politely replied.
I nodded to his words and my gaze darted back to my son’s face. He looked so peaceful in his sleep and I took that cue to carry him from Delores‘ arm carefully so he wouldn’t wake up.
I’d rather bond with my son overnight than spend it with Damien who keeps making me succumb to those stupid and fiery desires.
13:04 Tue, Oct 29
Chapter 29
“See you later, Steven. Keep me updated with the honeymoon plan.” I waved him and walked into the apartment, giving him and Delores the privacy they obviously needed.
“Will surely do.” He replied before I shut the door. I could already see the stars dancing in his eyes. I wish both of them the best, and I hope they experience the good and sweet side of love
“Let’s go to bed.” I sang softly to Charlie. He was still fast asleep in my arms. He must have played a lot today and I’m glad that he’s been physically well these days.
Getting to my room, I laid Charlie on it in a gentle manner and stripped myself off the clothes I was wearing. They were Damien’s. So I quickly changed into my own comfy shorts and t–shirt.
I lay beside Charlie and enveloped him in my arms, also wanting to succumb to the same kind of sleep Charlie was enjoying.
A dreamless and thoughtless sleep. One where I could feel well–rested and calm. It’s what I need after all the internal turmoil of today.
The evening was still young, but I wasn’t sure if I wanted to open my eyes until tomorrow.
So I tried to focus on my son. The most amazing thing that this life has given me. I watched him take those slow breaths and I mimicked him until my eyes were finding it difficult to stay wide open.
And soon enough, oblivion pulled me under.
But when my eyes opened, Damien was the person I saw in a room that looked nothing like the one I had just fallen asleep in.
“Irene, you came for me. I knew who you would.” He said and smiled warmly at me.
“How did you know that? And where are we?” I asked, glancing around the room. It was painted all white and everything else‘ in it was white. It seemed like a photo studio where the photoshoot theme was white.
“It’s our space. And that doesn’t matter now. But why did you leave me? Do you not want a life with me?” He asked as he grabbed my hand and pulled me to sit with him on a white couch.
“This is strange, Damien. And don’t ask me questions like that.” I replied, still feeling unsettled as I kept looking around.
“I love you. I want you. I need you.” He said in one breath as he locked gazes with me.
“What about you? Just say it straight and direct. How do you feel about me? What exactly do you feel for me?” He asked with so much intensity in his eyes that it almost burned my skin like lasers.
So, I gulped.
SEND GIFT
