Chapter 61
Irene’s POV
My feet suddenly had a mind of their own because, in the blink of an eye, I was already standing beside her, terrified of what might happen. My heart was thumping frantically and the only word chanting in my head was “Save”
“Nooooo!” I screamed and held her hand tight, the one holding the scalpel. How was she even able to get a hold of a scalpel Why are the hospital staff so careless?
“No, let me kill myself, I deserve to die. Eva cried, struggling so hard to set her hand free and cut herself. I found Damien and Steven on her other side, trying to hold her back, to press lies into the bed and get the sharp object away from her.
“Let me die!” She screamed, still struggling. And as we were unable to pin her down, angry and emotional, I slapped her so hard on the cheek, that it stung so hard that she immediately calmed down and finally let the scalpel drop to the floor.
“Get the doctor. Damien told Steven and he rushed out immediately while I grabbed her by the shoulders and lowered my eyes to her face level
“Why the heck would you want to do that? What the fuck is wrong with you?” I asked, more like I shouted at her. But I was high on adrenaline rush, surging through me like a burst of energy.
I hated suicide.
I was so against it, body, mind, and soul. I detested it with my entire being no matter how badly I was close to giving up on life. I never thought about it to that extent
Suicide was no. And it will always be a no
Eva knew why. She knew the reason why I hated it with every fiber of my being. It was something she should have never considered. How could she forget the trauma of witnessing our elementary school teacher kill himself?
“Irene, please calm down. The doctors will be here soon to tend to her.” Damien interjected, noticing how much I was fuming and burning with rage,
A mixture of why I came here and what I met when I got here. It was enough to get me boiling.
“Let me die. Please Eva croaked out, crying. She was a blubbering mess as she tried to talk,
“No fucking way.” I replied. I didn’t regret slapping her cheek damn hard. If that is what was needed to awaken her from such a mindset.
How dare she seek the easy way out?
There’s a lot to atone for.
“I don’t deserve to see you. I don’t deserve to have you. Don’t forgive me. Let me just die and leave this world for you so you can live peacefully with him and your son. So please, let me just die.” She clung to my shirt and cried. Her eyes were so red, her entire body was sweaty and her bloody hands were shaking.
What the helli
“You want to kill yourself because I don’t want to forgive you?” Lasked her as guilt blossomed in my mind.
She was a mess. She is evil. But she doesn’t have to kill herself because of me.
Living this world without Eva would surely be peaceful but I dont wish for her to take her own life. I don’t even wish death upon her. I just didn’t want to have anything to do with her anymore.
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Chapter 61
But now, I can’t let her be by herself. She has become suicidal.
Being unable to walk and suicidal is actually a bad mix. What if she keeps attempting different ways to kill herself all because
of me?
“Excuse me.
Please leave the room. The doctor nished in with two nurses.
“Why do we have to leave her alone with you?” I questioned, not trusting the medical personnel to handle Eva’s attempts at killing herself again.
“We need to tend to the patient urgently. Please excise us. The coctor replied and a nurse ushered us out of the room. But I was antsy and scared of the worst happening just because I left the room and allowed the doctor and nurses to be in charge
of her.
“Hey,” Damien held my shoulders and stopped me from pacing around while trying to look through the small glass design in the door to the room
“You are jittering with nervousness. Can you try to remain calm for me?” He asked me, staring into my eyes with so much
seriousness.
“Calm?” I asked in a soft voice.
“Calm?!” I raised my voice at him. Was he even thinking straight Does he understand that the woman inside there is trying to kill herself because of me? Does he understand the gravity of guilt that will consume me alive if she successfully does that?
Does he understand how serious this whole issue ic
“Irene Boden Chad!” He yelled back at me and I blinked hard, realizing suddenly that I was actually not calm and I didn’t know if I would be calm.
“Can you try and be calm for me? You need to be calm so you can think straight and not make decisions based on your current emotions.” He said to me and I nodded my head vehemently, hearing what he just said.
But I understood nothing.
“Are you going to do that for me?” He asked and I nodded my head again.
“Good.” He pulled me into a hug, “Don’t forget, you are not alone.” He added and I nodded my head again. It’s the only thing I can do as I await the door being opened by the doctor or one of the nurses
Some minutes went by before one of the nurses finally put an end to the waiting, calling us to come inside.
I didn’t even wait for Damien or Steven before I rushed in frantically to confirm that she was still alive and breathing.
“Eva, why?” I asked, but all she did was stare at me with red and teary eyes.
“We just sedated her. You can talk to her when she wakes up later The
